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I am a youngest daughter from seven siblings and I have a younger brother who is 18 years old. Who am I as a person? I am as a youngest sister of my 2 elder brothers and 3 sisters. I think due to my position as a youngest sister in my family so that I grew up as a childish and very sensitive person. But I’m not always act like a child. It’s depending on what condition and with whom I communicate at that time. I already realize that I’m being too sensitive sometimes, so it’s become easily to get hurt from others words or actions without they realized that.
I was born in a farmer family, my parents had not educated but they really alert about their children education. Thanks God because given me a wonderful couple to be my parents. I really appreciate and love them a lot and I promised to myself that I will try my best to fulfill their dreams and being a good daughter for them. From my young age, I was teaching to be a hardworking person. I was forced to wake up early in the morning to go to my primary school. Usually I not went out for playing with my friends at the evening, but I had to finish up my homework because I had to study at the night. As a conclusion I can say that all my time from my school age until know mostly were full with studying and reading.
My primary education is started at the age of sixth when my parents sent me to a kindergarten near by to my house. After that I went to a primary school 5minutes far from my house which is Sek.Keb. Kuala Lanjut. I was there for my standard 1 2 3 5 and 6. at the age of ninth where as I was in standard 3, I passed the ‘Penilaian Tahap Satu’ examination which is giving me a ticket to entry standard 5 without sitting in standard 4. At that time I was the only student that did well in the examination in the school. It was my first big achievement in my life. My second achievement is in UPSR when I get 4A 1B. At that time, I was really happy because my family seem like appreciates that. But now, when I think about that again, I think that it’s no the true happiness at all because for what I get I paid that with my children time. I not really enjoying my children time like others children.

After my primary school, I was sent to Mahmud College Alor Setar which is the most famous school in Kedah. Mahmud College is a leading Islamic Arabic school in the State of Kedah Darul Aman. Established in 1936, the school has produced some respected ulamaks, professionals and politicians. Among the individuals from this schools are Dato Zainudin Maidin ,Dato Dr Mashitah Ibrahim and etc. I was there for five years, started from form one till form five. Most of my personal qualities such as being responsible, possessing self-esteem, being sociable, ability to self-manage and possessing integrity and honesty were developed at the school. I said that because at my secondary school times, I was staying at the hostel for five years. So, those times give me a chance to create my own life and personality. During my secondary school, I get 8A’s 1B in PMR and 11A’s 1C in my SPM. On 2005, I was in the list of best student of SPM 2004(xde r best student pn bnor ny...).
My journey is not ending yet, but it’s only the starter of my harder lifetime. After my secondary school I was registered to Negeri Sembilan Matriculation College for a year. A year there teaches me that life no always easy. Life is become harder and harder as we grow up and life teaches me to become tougher and tougher to face any obstacles a long my journey. Finished my matriculation time my result is not very good as my school ages. I just only get 3.79 for my first semester exam and 3.45 in my second semester. My families were very disappointed. I feel very guilty but my parents very supportive. They knew that I already do the best and work harder to achieve my dream.
God searches for the right person to whom he can entrust the greatest gift he can give a human being-a dream. I think that’s why I’m here as a nursing student and become a nurse in the future. After I get my matriculation exam result, I apply for the forensic course in the 1st and 2nd choices. For the 3rd and 4th I applied the nursing course just because I feel that very interest in children after I had to taking care of my 6 month niece for 2 months during my holiday after the matriculation session. I applied this nursing course not just because of that only, but because my parents more encourage me to do nursing then forensic.
As I said above, God searches for the right person to whom he can entrust the greatest gift, I feel that may be become a nurse is more suitable for me. That’s why I become a nursing student here. As we know, success is a never ending process of going through good times and bad, pleasure and pain, ups and down and also ins and out. For the first year in nursing course, it’s was very difficult to me to adapt and become an excellent student. But even now my result is no very good, just OK. That’s make me quite depress because I already work harder and harder all the times. Because of what happened, its make me feel regrets to join nursing. I always thing that may be I’m not choosing a right profession for my future but I already love this profession very much and I tried to work harder and to make this profession become a dream of the future generation is my dream. I hope that one day a word “nurse” become a favor of others same as the word “doctor”. When I think of how far we have came and how far this profession still has to go, I believe that anything is possible. In time we will learn the answer. In time we will discover the breakthroughs. In time we will see the impossible turned into the possible.
What appeared impossible yesterday might be possible today, and what appears impossible today might be possible tomorrow. That’s because every day new techniques are learned and new breakthroughs in medical are discovered. In order towards upgrading nursing professionalism a nurse should playing a role and giving effort to discover new finding in order to improve medical services nowadays.
As a nursing student, I learned that a big problem was never one single problem. I see those three words that have saved thousands of lives, three words that every doctor nurse and litter bearer has to live by. The three live saving words were CHEK -DOUBLE CHECK- RECHECK. I must remember those three words in my life time as long as I breathe in this profession.
The most remembered incident after the first incident which is I was slapped by a patient is the incident when a patient was given warfarin by me without refer to her PT APTT result. Actually I gave her the medication because I was told to do so at that time. Because of the mistake I was scolded by an on-call doctor 3hours later after I gave the patient that drug. Thank God because there is no bad thing or complication appeared due to my mistake. The incident teaches me to be intelligent and critical thinker and not easily do what ever others person told me without really understood and clear about what to do. From that time, I learn to be more confident and do what I think it should be done and I learn to say no to what ever I think that it should not be done and for what ever I do it’s must be answerable.
As a student I know that there is no wrong to do wrong in the process of learning. Nobody perfect as we know. But I really work hard and do the best in what ever procedure or skills which is applied to my patient because my aim is to be a good care giver one day. So that is my responsibility to do the right thing for the first time in process to be a good nurse.
When an academic degree is in my hand, I know it’s not the end of my success. Rather it is to give me the base to move forward, upward and onward. At that time, I can be taken seriously by serious person. This is the time to stop and reappraise my power, review any assets, subtracts my liabilities from my assets and find out what my net worth is today in professional terms in intellectual terms, in experience and knowledge and in financial terms. I hope that time will arrive soon. I hope a better chance to develop and upgrade this profession will come one day and the one who is taking place in order to upgrade nursing profession in the future is me Nurul Syifak Bt. Ahmad.

p/s: typing error or broken english adalah di halalkan.. huhuihu